I grew up with a strong “performer” in me. I felt that if I could keep everything “on track” in my life and in my family’s life, I would be secure. You learn very quickly that life if not perhaps “safe amd secure”.

In fact, it is risky to be alive, and there will be a myriad of large disappointments along the way. This is a painting that I painted after jumping back into some therapy with the intention to do parts work. I knew the artist part of me had come to life, and was now bearing her image in my actual life. Now I was curious about the others parts that were dormant in me, and maybe had something to say.

The Performer in me needed to stop running the show, and needed to unlock her arms with my Self. I am learning more and more each day how to just be myself, and to acknowledge all the many moment of discomfort that I cannot perform my way out of.

What a gift it is to grow.